Shiori one-shot
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gaston26So I wrote my one-shot about Juri and Shiori's relationship. I make this from Shiori's POV and this is her feeling and thought about all the years she knew Juri. Maybe I would wrote another one-shot that will show Juri's side version.
My friend Juri
I meet Juri a long times ago, when I was 4 years old. I will always remember this day.
My family wasn't as rich as Juri's. My grandfather only becomes a millionnaire late in his life after decades of working in business. My parents wanted to become even more richer and powerful as quickly as possible, especially my father who had me when he was already in his 40s.
They makes sure to get invite everywhere so they could try making contact with the people that really matter. Everytimes, they make sure I was well dressed and told me to stay calm. In one evenement I was left in a room full of rich kids. One of them was a boy one of two years older than me and decide to pick on me. I didn't know what to do because I knew if I scream or cry, my parents would punish me for making a scene.
A miracle happenned. Juri approched and gives the boy a mean look that scare him off. She introduce herself to me and I introduced myself. We played during the rest of the evening and when our parents arrived, Juri asked her's if she could invite me at her house. They accepted.
In the car, my parents were happy and congratulate me. I thought they were happy I finally was able to make a friend, but now I know the real reason. I know they never cared about me and only see me as a pawn.
When I first saw Juri's mansion I couldn't believe it. I lived in a big house with a maid, but it was nothing compared to it. Juri's bedroom alone seemed bigger as my house and she seemed having all the toy in the world. I past all my free times with Juri. I was so happy. I was probably the happiest in my entire life.
Then school happened. I was still shy but I always has Juri on my side. I thought this is all I needed but I started to get a few low grades. I remember my mother yelled and slapped me, saying I deserved it for all the hard work my father was doing to paid for my schoolship. Thankfully Juri helped me and I get better.
Juri was very popular. She becomes a member of the fencing club and I was here to encourage her. Over the years, she becames more and more exceptional while I was still a shy normal girl.
I tried not be annoyed about this but over the years my parents preassure me to becomes as good as Juri so they could exibit me as a trophy and show to all their rich and influence friends how good parents they were since they raised a so exceptionnal girl. Sadly for them, I was only able to have normal grades and the only times I tried fencing, I make a fool of myself and swear to never try it again. My parents weren't happy and even told me once they would have prefer having Juri as daughter.
And that wasn't the only problem. Often I would let Juri at her practice and walked around the school, wondering what to do. This is at this moment that I realized how much I was hated. This seemed every girl on earth wanted to be Juri's best friend and was jealous I was in their way. Now that I was alone, they have a chance to scare me. One particular group were nasty towards me. I tried to ignore them but one day they physically attacked me. I cried I would told this to Juri and they answered if I did this, that would be a proof I was just an useless crybaby who needed protection all the times and one day Juri would be tried of protect me and just leave me alone. For some reasons, those words stock in my head. When I meet Juri later this day, she asked me why I was injured. I lied and told her I fail by accident when I was running.
Now I wanted proof to everyone that I could exist on my proof. I past months tried to found something I would be exceptionnal at. I decided to do an art project and build a clay statue. I would show it to everyone and they would be impress at my talent.
Or so I thought.
I had trouble to keep my statue intact and worst I wasn't sure what figure I wanted to do. Then Juri sees my project and said she could help me. I was too shy to said no so my statue become our statue. I was still living in her shadow.
I gives up and decided trying not be influenced by what other was saying about me but it was hard. Each year Juri was more exceptionnal and I was more pathetically ordinary. I tried to make other friends but each times they each used me to get closer to Juri or they were too busy talking how lucky I was to be Juri's best friend to cares about me. I was just Juri's friend.
My situation becomes worst when I turned 13 years old.
I started to have...weird feeling for Juri. I had a few strange thoughts before but they becomes stronger and more recurring. I even dream once Juri and I were....God I don't want to think about it. Those feelings aren't normal at all!
That wasn't my only problem. Juri became distant. She never wasn't the more emotional person in the wotrld, but it become worst. One day, I touch her hand and she recoiled. When we were doing sleepover, she seemed to be embarassed. At first I was afraid she guessed my strange feelings and then I finaly realized the reason.
In the fencing club, she was talking and had past a lot of times with the same guy. He looked handsome and seemed nice. She was in love with him. I am sure. She was more distant because she didnt have times for her pathetic best friend anymore.
Friend. Did she ever see me as a friend? Why would the wonderful Juri still past her times with me? Everyone know she is above me. Maybe all those years she just pity me. I have all those dark thoughts in me but I still had a little hope I was wrong.
The hope died the day I caught Juri changing. I saw she had a locket around her neck. I teased her she had a lover. She said nothing and turned her head. I asked I wanted to see the picture in her locket since I have a good idea who was in this. She told me codly she didn't want talk about her locket and then left.
What was her problem? I know this is that boy in the locket. Why didn't she show me his picture? She didn't trust me enough to share her secret with me, her closer friends since childhood. Does she think I would told everyone? She was't my friend. She never was I am afraid. Our relationship isn't a normal friendship. I am not normal.
No. I am normal. Painfully normal. But I have this unnormal love inside me....So to make those feelings go away, I decided I needed a boyfriend. This boy would do the job. I will have a normal love and I will hurt Juri in the same times. This is perfect. For once I will be above her. I will have a handsome boyfriend before her and that will be the one she secretly loves.
And so I lied to him and told him Juri didn't love him but that I loved him. He seemed a bit sad, but happy to have a girlfriend. We dated and I always make sure to go sees him during fencing club. I could sees Juri was hurt even if she didn't show anything. She is aloof with everyone. Once I go nag her and told her she must hates me because I stole her love. She said nothing. She is too pride to show she is hurt by me, the object of her pity during all those years.
I get tired of Juri and told my parents I wanted change school. They didn't seem bother my relation with Juri had ended, I suppose they have enough powerful relationship at this point. My boyfriend tranferred with me. I quickly get bored with him and he feels this. He leaves me and started dating every girls he can found it seems.
Here the students know nothing about me. This is nice to be able to talk friendly with other girls and don't be the center of so most jealously, as if this was great to have Juri as a friend. This is three years since I leave Juri. I try to be happy. I am happier without having everyone compare myself to her every day, but I still miss something.
The thing is that even if I was hurt by her, she is still the best thing that happened in my life. I still have good memories when we were children....In fact I am not sure what to think about her. I hates and loves her in the same times. I have still those thoughts...I imagined dating a boy would cure me but that didn't happen....
So every day I am thinking about her. I am obsessed with her. I want to go back at her even if I know how she feels about me. Would she even take me back? The situation is so pathetic but this is normal.
I am a pathetic girl and I will always be.
My friend Juri
I meet Juri a long times ago, when I was 4 years old. I will always remember this day.
My family wasn't as rich as Juri's. My grandfather only becomes a millionnaire late in his life after decades of working in business. My parents wanted to become even more richer and powerful as quickly as possible, especially my father who had me when he was already in his 40s.
They makes sure to get invite everywhere so they could try making contact with the people that really matter. Everytimes, they make sure I was well dressed and told me to stay calm. In one evenement I was left in a room full of rich kids. One of them was a boy one of two years older than me and decide to pick on me. I didn't know what to do because I knew if I scream or cry, my parents would punish me for making a scene.
A miracle happenned. Juri approched and gives the boy a mean look that scare him off. She introduce herself to me and I introduced myself. We played during the rest of the evening and when our parents arrived, Juri asked her's if she could invite me at her house. They accepted.
In the car, my parents were happy and congratulate me. I thought they were happy I finally was able to make a friend, but now I know the real reason. I know they never cared about me and only see me as a pawn.
When I first saw Juri's mansion I couldn't believe it. I lived in a big house with a maid, but it was nothing compared to it. Juri's bedroom alone seemed bigger as my house and she seemed having all the toy in the world. I past all my free times with Juri. I was so happy. I was probably the happiest in my entire life.
Then school happened. I was still shy but I always has Juri on my side. I thought this is all I needed but I started to get a few low grades. I remember my mother yelled and slapped me, saying I deserved it for all the hard work my father was doing to paid for my schoolship. Thankfully Juri helped me and I get better.
Juri was very popular. She becomes a member of the fencing club and I was here to encourage her. Over the years, she becames more and more exceptional while I was still a shy normal girl.
I tried not be annoyed about this but over the years my parents preassure me to becomes as good as Juri so they could exibit me as a trophy and show to all their rich and influence friends how good parents they were since they raised a so exceptionnal girl. Sadly for them, I was only able to have normal grades and the only times I tried fencing, I make a fool of myself and swear to never try it again. My parents weren't happy and even told me once they would have prefer having Juri as daughter.
And that wasn't the only problem. Often I would let Juri at her practice and walked around the school, wondering what to do. This is at this moment that I realized how much I was hated. This seemed every girl on earth wanted to be Juri's best friend and was jealous I was in their way. Now that I was alone, they have a chance to scare me. One particular group were nasty towards me. I tried to ignore them but one day they physically attacked me. I cried I would told this to Juri and they answered if I did this, that would be a proof I was just an useless crybaby who needed protection all the times and one day Juri would be tried of protect me and just leave me alone. For some reasons, those words stock in my head. When I meet Juri later this day, she asked me why I was injured. I lied and told her I fail by accident when I was running.
Now I wanted proof to everyone that I could exist on my proof. I past months tried to found something I would be exceptionnal at. I decided to do an art project and build a clay statue. I would show it to everyone and they would be impress at my talent.
Or so I thought.
I had trouble to keep my statue intact and worst I wasn't sure what figure I wanted to do. Then Juri sees my project and said she could help me. I was too shy to said no so my statue become our statue. I was still living in her shadow.
I gives up and decided trying not be influenced by what other was saying about me but it was hard. Each year Juri was more exceptionnal and I was more pathetically ordinary. I tried to make other friends but each times they each used me to get closer to Juri or they were too busy talking how lucky I was to be Juri's best friend to cares about me. I was just Juri's friend.
My situation becomes worst when I turned 13 years old.
I started to have...weird feeling for Juri. I had a few strange thoughts before but they becomes stronger and more recurring. I even dream once Juri and I were....God I don't want to think about it. Those feelings aren't normal at all!
That wasn't my only problem. Juri became distant. She never wasn't the more emotional person in the wotrld, but it become worst. One day, I touch her hand and she recoiled. When we were doing sleepover, she seemed to be embarassed. At first I was afraid she guessed my strange feelings and then I finaly realized the reason.
In the fencing club, she was talking and had past a lot of times with the same guy. He looked handsome and seemed nice. She was in love with him. I am sure. She was more distant because she didnt have times for her pathetic best friend anymore.
Friend. Did she ever see me as a friend? Why would the wonderful Juri still past her times with me? Everyone know she is above me. Maybe all those years she just pity me. I have all those dark thoughts in me but I still had a little hope I was wrong.
The hope died the day I caught Juri changing. I saw she had a locket around her neck. I teased her she had a lover. She said nothing and turned her head. I asked I wanted to see the picture in her locket since I have a good idea who was in this. She told me codly she didn't want talk about her locket and then left.
What was her problem? I know this is that boy in the locket. Why didn't she show me his picture? She didn't trust me enough to share her secret with me, her closer friends since childhood. Does she think I would told everyone? She was't my friend. She never was I am afraid. Our relationship isn't a normal friendship. I am not normal.
No. I am normal. Painfully normal. But I have this unnormal love inside me....So to make those feelings go away, I decided I needed a boyfriend. This boy would do the job. I will have a normal love and I will hurt Juri in the same times. This is perfect. For once I will be above her. I will have a handsome boyfriend before her and that will be the one she secretly loves.
And so I lied to him and told him Juri didn't love him but that I loved him. He seemed a bit sad, but happy to have a girlfriend. We dated and I always make sure to go sees him during fencing club. I could sees Juri was hurt even if she didn't show anything. She is aloof with everyone. Once I go nag her and told her she must hates me because I stole her love. She said nothing. She is too pride to show she is hurt by me, the object of her pity during all those years.
I get tired of Juri and told my parents I wanted change school. They didn't seem bother my relation with Juri had ended, I suppose they have enough powerful relationship at this point. My boyfriend tranferred with me. I quickly get bored with him and he feels this. He leaves me and started dating every girls he can found it seems.
Here the students know nothing about me. This is nice to be able to talk friendly with other girls and don't be the center of so most jealously, as if this was great to have Juri as a friend. This is three years since I leave Juri. I try to be happy. I am happier without having everyone compare myself to her every day, but I still miss something.
The thing is that even if I was hurt by her, she is still the best thing that happened in my life. I still have good memories when we were children....In fact I am not sure what to think about her. I hates and loves her in the same times. I have still those thoughts...I imagined dating a boy would cure me but that didn't happen....
So every day I am thinking about her. I am obsessed with her. I want to go back at her even if I know how she feels about me. Would she even take me back? The situation is so pathetic but this is normal.
I am a pathetic girl and I will always be.
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